Oral / Huang Wei. Interview, editing / Alice Chan. Film & Photography/ Manchi. When I was young, I always had a lot of books in my family. My parents used to work in Yuanliu Publishing House, and because of this, I had more opportunities to access various books. The most impressive reading experience at the beginning was from a series of Jin Yong published by Yuanliu. Occasionally, he also flipped through the translation of Dasheng's "Rashomon" - the most common book in Dad's study is "Rashomon". But for me at that time as a primary school student, it was too difficult to enter, let alone understand. Jin Yong's work - martial arts novels may be popular, but because of popular, it can resonate. In the fifth grade of the National Primary School, I read the whole set of Jin Yong, which is easy for the 11-year-old child to read; he used a Western approach to describe the culture of the East. I even read the dictionary and read it. A little older, began to know the other two of the martial arts novels, Gu Long and Liang Yusheng. He has a deep impression on Gu Long. He uses a textual structure like a movie-like perspective. His entertainment is low and he focuses on the psychological state of the characters. Apart from the controversy of big manism, I appreciate his works. He is a relatively romantic creator, and he finally died in a wine glass. He also has a sad feeling against his work and his own life. However, if you really choose to read the book "consciously", it is probably the time to work in a coffee shop after retiring. At that time, I was completely unfamiliar with Japanese literature, and because of the introduction of my girlfriend at the time, I began to be interested in Japanese writers. The writings of Japanese writers always have a dull and low-key color, like a cruel voice, telling the cruelty in life. That kind of writing, in contrast to my own music, I think, in addition to life itself, more of these artists, writers or musicians; by their works, in the seemingly insignificant fragments of life Excavate the profound meaning of the implication. Because I was curious about the Japanese writers, I read the Dasheng translation of my father's translation. I remember that my father used to get up early every day, and before the afternoon break, he was translating, and the manuscript paper was thick. It overlapped me. Some part of Dad’s memory, and this memory has naturally become an opportunity to read it carefully. Although the stories in "Rashomon" are short stories, they are full of strength; the background is mostly in a period of turbulence and unrest, and the atmosphere is more profoundly revealing "humanity." These "humanity" may be exaggerated by the story, but they reflect many irrational behaviors that are still often performed in the world today, including the persistence of war and injury, and the deprivation of the weak by the strong - both the emotional and the survival levels - It should also prove that this book gives me the feeling that when a kind of development or development goes to an extreme, all negative darkness will be revealed one by one. Akutagawa Ryunosuke’s claim from the "Rashomon" is not the beauty that we are yearning for, but a kind of truth - I think, I look forward to seeing the true side of human nature than seeing the good side of human nature through reading! It is because it does not hide the reality, and therefore it is more able to persuade people to be good. Even if the emotions are somewhat disgusting, it also gives me some comfort: in the face of the unacceptable world, it seems to be able to understand. Another one who gave me a shocking bomb was Tai Jizhi. Also a Japanese writer, Akutagawa always has "instructions" or "education" in the story; but Taizai and his "human disqualification" focus only on himself and his "moving destruction." Two years ago, I began to have a melancholy tendency to write a song "In the Darkness". At that time, I was sensitive to the dark and unclear face of human nature. I was looking for similar subjects. I wanted to see through these words that these people are facing When life and psychological dilemmas and sorrows are expressed, how will it be expressed, and where is the limit? It is still a glimmer of light in the darkness, or it is annihilated with all strength. Two years ago, I began to have a melancholy tendency to write a song "In the Darkness". At that time, I was sensitive to the dark and unclear face of human nature. I was looking for similar subjects. I wanted to see through these words that these people are facing When life and psychological dilemmas and sorrows are expressed, how will it be expressed, and where is the limit? It is still a glimmer of light in the darkness, or it is annihilated with all strength. "Human Disqualification" is probably the most hopeless and vain situation in the book I read at that time. Before that, I had read only a few Japanese writers such as Akutagawa, Yukio Mishima, Natsume Soseki and Murakami. I used to read the entire book once and spent four times to read the "Disqualification", perhaps because of it. It’s all about his own state; in the face of that state, it takes me some time to digest. There is always a certain part of Taizai’s character that reminds me of Yukio Mishima. Even if the two people’s personality is like a strong contrast, the three islands are too well-known to be slaughtered. (Even even criticized, a novelist like Taizai who wants to “sentimental” should It grows more serious; but in the end it is too slaughtered as a life and emotional martyrdom, and the Three Islands are martyrdom for their ideal dignity and samurai spirit. Both of them regard the suicide of ordinary people as "self-destruction" as their vesting--that is a strong attachment to life and self-control. I divided it four times and finally watched it on the plane. Although the feeling was shrouded in a low-lying atmosphere, I was very resonated with me at that time. It seems that I am self-satisfied in negative emotions, but I see a more extreme trend than myself. "I understand what you are talking about"; this kind of resonance is also reflected in the fans I face. I know some fans and friends, and some of them are so entangled to live. For some people, life is sometimes a painful process, and Taizai has a very thorough experience. He has no choice. From a secular point of view, he can not be so embarrassed, but he chooses one of the most extreme. the way. It is almost naked and dangerous to live by yourself and express yourself in words. However, such creators are actually more passionate about life than most of us, living and experiencing in a "perceptual" way. For some people, life is sometimes a painful process, and Taizai has a very thorough experience. He has no choice. From a secular point of view, he can not be so embarrassed, but he chooses one of the most extreme. the way. It is almost naked and dangerous to live by yourself and express yourself in words. However, such creators are actually more passionate about life than most of us, living and experiencing in a "perceptual" way. In fact, I don’t think much about pure literary works. Compared with literature, I am more interested in how human life and the world develop into the present appearance and logic. Therefore, most of the choices are related to war, historical development or human psychology. Theme of. Especially because of my own depression, I read many psychology books and wanted to analyze myself more deeply. When I first came into contact with the book "Receiving Imperfect Courage: Adler's 100 Life Revolution", I was a bit repulsive and always felt too naive and optimistic. Later, I read it carefully and looked up Adler’s biography: I was suffering from the disease since childhood, and created his inferiority complex to himself. Then the school led by the school was persecuted by the Jewish social atmosphere... He will live his life. The background and discussion are actually more convincing. There are many seemingly simple, positive and naive ideas in his doctrine. "There are no perfect people in this world. They have to identify and like to have shortcomings, nothing, and true self." "Your life is made by your thoughts." Decided." In fact, after careful consideration, you will find that it is a fact, and it is not simple. Zooming into life, we have been educated and instilled with scores as a standard, so that we can manage them when we grow up. We regard many "extraordinary" as a defect, not a personality; therefore, when it fails somewhere, it is not only easy to self-question, but may never climb again and fall into it. Adler’s discourse is a wake-up call for me. Life can be decided by myself now, not just how you have been in the past, thus creating what you are. He explained it in a way that was more like the entry into the WTO. He did not emphasize "how to do it", but only suggested the possible direction after an act; some small but impossible decisions may change his feelings about the present world - this and me. The pursuit of "existence value" is consistent. Adler’s discourse is a wake-up call for me. Life can be decided by myself now, not just how you have been in the past, thus creating what you are. He explained it in a way that was more like the entry into the WTO. He did not emphasize "how to do it", but only suggested the possible direction after an act; some small but impossible decisions may change his feelings about the present world - this and me. The pursuit of "existence value" is consistent. Faced with the trivialities of life, I tried to think with Adler's discourse, complete the solution one by one, understand what I want and be more positive. After all, things are only between doing and not doing. Regarding life, another subversion of me is "the abnormal life is over-expanding: the ideal living guide for Zhengxing Street Cabinet Men". Looking at this not so serious book name, you can guess the story of life told by the author Gao Yaowei, not so regular. Before an opportunity, I was invited to perform at a local event in Zhengxing Street, Tainan; the street was very active and literary, and the reason for the rise was related to the author of the book. Before the settlement of Tainan, Gao Yaowei was the so-called "successful person". His life was in a "normal direction". One day, he suddenly became ignorant of what he was pursuing. So he moved to Zhengxing Street and his life turned a big U- Turn. This street was originally a very ordinary road, but because of the close communication and crazy activities with the local residents - crazy means that "do not make money" for the average person, like to do a "global vision is the narrowest The magazine "Zheng Xing Wen"; a new link between the local elderly residents, creators and new residents. However, as everything grew bigger and more red, Gao Yaowei began to think about whether that state was contrary to his original idea; so he returned everything to a small scale and re-examined the life he wanted. This kind of story and life turns, let me deeply understand that life does not have to be what, or what it should be. In a capitalist society, when everything grows bigger, it seems that it will go to a completely different result than the one originally expected, a business; the public judges the so-called value, and ultimately only the currency - an oversimplification Too much cruel way to measure. What is "work" and "life" in the end, and why is "vacation" a sin? This sin is reflected in various ways in the imbalance between our work and life, and it is a common sorrow for us who are not conscious. Gao Yaowei broke through this framework and lived and worked in a way that seemed to be "romantic and not active." It was difficult for me to do it myself. It is beyond the universal value. I admire it. Reading time to me is like watching a movie, separating yourself from another time and space outside of reality, stealing a piece in life, meditating, retreating, thinking. When the text is already in front of the eyes, it is mostly written by the author's deliberation; compared with my own reader's thinking and the author's intention, the two are the same. Or, repeatedly compare the words used in the wording - dialectical with the author's logic and his own thoughts. If you are re-reviewing yourself with your own dialectic, comparison, and even by others' eyes, you must mention "Welcome to the Wind and Hitachi Records". This is a book written by Feng Heri to invite Chen Yu'an to record the growth of our group of people who love to dream and love music. Frankly speaking, I am not a very mature person. After joining the team, I only care about myself for a while. Later, more and more people know my music. I even started to entangle my work and reject all things that have nothing to do with music. Most of the people who put in music creation are not trying to make money. The original heart of music should be pure. Imagine that life should be spent in creation and performance. As their music is spread and shared, other foreign affairs are gradually increasing. Propaganda and running notices are always unwilling. In addition, the later melancholy tendencies, their own pains are afflicting others, and the process is with me and partners. Torture. Most of the people who put in music creation are not trying to make money. The original heart of music should be pure. Imagine that life should be spent in creation and performance. As their music is spread and shared, other foreign affairs are gradually increasing. Propaganda and running notices are always unwilling. In addition, the later melancholy tendencies, their own pains are afflicting others, and the process is with me and partners. Torture. Now, through the text of this book, I know the self in the eyes of others (and because of Adler’s positive attitude), I found out that I didn’t like or reject everything at the time, maybe it’s not bad; after all, I changed my face. Treat your favorite music with a mentality of work. While reading, there is a deep introspection at the bottom of my heart. Although I read it with a heart of reflection, I looked at my own partner and my partner from the perspective of Chen Xiaoan. For fifteen years - not a long company, in my own life. It seems to have written all my musical stories. Still warm, those shining moments are still moving and moving with these writing records. So, it seems that there is a little courage and strength to face what you want to accomplish. When I think of the original mention, I like to read the books about why the world has become like this. But when it comes to this, it turns out that I know not only the world but also a deeper understanding of myself in the book. Study Room 005 Book "Rashomon", Akutagawa Ryunosuke "Human Disqualification", Taizaizhi...